Blog #1 pages 1-27

The main character in my book, David, reminds me of myself because he recently lost his mother.  As he travels through his new daily life, small things remind him of his mom and things she used to do. As it has only been a few weeks since I lost my father, I too have these moments.  I think about him often and become paralyzed by how much I miss him.  The line in the first part of this story that resonates so much with me is when the narrator explains, " {F}or David believed that if he went a long enough time without breaking a rule-a year, five years, twenty- piling up a million obediences, a billion- sooner or later, somehow, somewhere, a debt would be paid, a score would be settled, and his mother would come back."  While I realize as a rationale adult there is nothing I can do to bring my dad back, sometimes I wonder what it would take to sacrifice to have one more conversation, one more hug, one more "I love you."  I suppose that is a normal part of the process, but I think as kids we always imagine our parents will be here until we are much older.  I still feel young (no jokes please) and to not have my dad here is tough.  In the story, David is very "stand-offish" and mean to the people around him due to his inner pain.  I wonder if I am becoming that person.  I hope not.  The people around me, including you, my students, mean a lot to me and have been the ones who helped me keep walking after an amazingly crappy year.  So while David and I have totally different stories, I can relate, and to me that is what makes reading so unique and personal... our connections.  Happy Reading :)